My Cursed Life

2007-08-26T00:04:00.001+08:00

2007-07-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

u try to break her heart.. i'll break ur neck.. i assure u that..

2007-07-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

im sick.. im sick of life.. and im sick of everyone.. and im walking down a lane.. where there is no end..

2007-07-28T15:28:00.000+08:00

i never liked this world.. not one bit.. its been lying and killing me thru.. Fck the world.. screw the people..
I told u im a sadistic freak.. but u guys just don't really understand..
Looks like the world is nothing like a piece of shit..
i've been living thru a lie.. countless amount of lies.. not by me.. but the fags who lie to me.. fckers..

2007-07-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

Life's a drag aint it..?

2007-07-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

to all who are reading my blog.. i salute u this _|_
well.. was pretty much moodless at the start of the day..
i warned u.. if u start me laughing.. i'll be laughing at
your sorry ass for one day.. best to just.. leave me in
peace..

2007-07-16T18:32:00.000+08:00

i don't need no one... i'd rather die now.. too many a time i've been trying to... i have opened my eyes and i've regretted going through everything... Say good-bye to the old me.. and say hello to the dead one..

2007-07-15T11:15:00.000+08:00

Sometimes.. i just wonder.. why does it happen if something very good happens to me..
and den b4 i could smile for it.. it vanishes in a blink of an eye.. WHY!? sometimes.. i wish i was dead to not experience the hardships of what is happening... well.. sigh..

2007-07-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

Good news one and all.. especially my darling =) i've quit all my bad habits =) the problem is.. will it last?

2007-07-12T17:44:00.000+08:00

Well.. met HER today =)
To tell u the truth.. after being with her.. instead of my life being cold.. and fueled with rage..
i've changed.. being warmer, and i have this tingling in me that feels.. i dunno how to describe it..
Guess she's the one after all then =)

2007-07-11T19:09:00.000+08:00

Just being random x)

Suicide Is Painless

Through early morning fog I see

visions of the things to be

the pains that are withheld for me

I realize and I can see...

[REFRAIN]:

that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make

all our little joys relate

without that ever-present hate

but now I know that it's too late, and...

[REFRAIN]

The game of life is hard to play

I'm gonna lose it anyway

The losing card I'll someday lay

so this is all I have to say.

[REFRAIN]

The only way to win is cheat

And lay it down before I'm beat

and to another give my seat

for that's the only painless feat.

[REFRAIN]

The sword of time will pierce our skins

It doesn't hurt when it begins

But as it works its way on in

The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...

[REFRAIN]

A brave man once requested me

to answer questions that are key

is it to be or not to be

and I replied 'oh why ask me?'

[REFRAIN]

'Cause suicide is painless

it brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please.

...and you can do the same thing if you please.

=)

2007-07-08T16:22:00.001+08:00

i would love you forever and ever... till the end reachs.. i shall care for ur needs... and do what u say... =) i love you

Random

2007-07-02T22:26:00.001+08:00

Well.. thnx for all the shit u gave me =) i really appreciate everything u did to me.. it gave me a mind set.. nothing goes the way u want it.. and u have to deal with it no matter wad it is.. well.. so long to the old.. hello to the HERETIC!!

I've got a quiz!!

2007-06-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

thnx to friendster i got a new quiz =D

1. Who is the last person you held hands with?
Someone im not allowed to tell =x

2. If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
survive lor.. SHOOT TO KILL!!

3. Do you sleep with the TV on?
yea i do.. xD

4. Have you ever drank milk straight
out of the carton?
shhh... i did =)

5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?
But i can spell well =)

6. What is your longest fight you had
with one of your friends?
up till now =)

7. Are you a fast typer?
HHAI HAO

8. Are you scared of the dark?
Nope.. i am darkness >=)

10. Who can you always turn to?
HER!

11. When's the last time you chose a
bath over a shower?
Does it make a diff?

12. Do you knock on wood?
hmmm... i dunno =/

13. Are you drinking anything right now?
no..

14. Do you think you're attractive?
Rate me =)

17. What do you want for your next birthday?
i want... i want.. i dunno.. im not choosie =x

18. Do you know the muffin man?
I do know some one who sells muffins =D

19. Do you talk in your sleep?
My family members said i do =x

20. Have you ever flown a kite?
Nope..

22. When was the last time that you went swimming and where?
Last wednesday =D Lifeguard training =/

23. Do you consider yourself successful?
Define successful =)

24.How many people are on your contact list of your cell phone?
hmmm.. lemme count..

25. Have you ever jumped on a trampoline?
Nope.. but i always wanted to =)

26. Plans for tommorrow?
N.D.P. lifeguard.. zzz.. long day..

27. What's your middle name?
Long(Dragon) =D

28. Missing someone right now?
yea i do D:

29. When's the last time you told someone you loved them?
i dun tell no one i love some one unless the some one asks or i'm a crazy
enuff to say it =)

31. How are you feeling today?
Not that bad.. kinda tired.. and happy..and moodless.. and... and... =X

33. Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
Nope.. im a good good boy :D

34. What are you looking forward to?
Im looking forward for u to come back =)

37. Have you ever eaten dog food?
Define dog food.. dog eats meat.. i eat meat.. so i guess so =x

38. Can you handle the truth?
Bring it.. i won't cry xD

40. What 3 things do you always bring
with you to places?
Handphone... Money... Ez-link card....... Still got summore but onli
need to list 3 xD

41. What are your plans for summer?
None.. at.. all...

42. Do you like or have a crush on anyone?
Hell yea i do D:

45. How often do you talk on the phone?
i dunno.. lemme check...

46. Do you believe in love?
I believe in... in... in... =x

47. Is there something you want that you can't have?
her?

48. Three things about the opposite sex that you first notice?
mmhmm... mmmmhmmmmmm.... =x
dang she's gorgeous.. would u look at THAT.. mmmmmmmmm
LOL

50. What did you last hug?
i don't remember.. would it be u? NAWH.. lol

51. where is your cell phone?
in front of me =D

54. Favorite Color(s)?
TOTAL BLACK!!!

55. Last movie you watched?
Pirates of the Carribean: At world's end

56. What song are you currently listening to?
Lil Jon - Snap Your Fingers

57. What do you want?
Everything i can't have..

59. What t.v. show are you watching?
im not watching tv.. im using my computer..

60. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
hmmm.... can't tell =x

im back.. and im not happy

2007-06-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

Screw YOU.. when i find him.. he's dead.. just u wait.. one fine day.. you'll find yourself on the MRT track.. begging for ur pitiful life.. u hurt her.. i'll break ur bones slowly.. till i reach ur neck.. ur life is mine to control.. and i shall do wad ever must be done..

You know who i am refering to..

and oh.. im back.. and might be back for more blogging..

quizzy~!

2007-03-29T18:34:00.000+08:00

I got this off friendster haha.. xD

SCHOOL CONFESSIONS
[x] Talked back to a teacher.
[x] Been kicked out of class.
[ ] Worn pajamas to school.
[x] Had your tooth fall out at school.
[x] Gotten lost in your school.
[x] Broken the dress code in school.
[x] Completely failed a test.
[x] Left class without asking.
[x] Missed a whole week of school.
[x] Thrown up in school.
[x] Been beaten up at school.

HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS
[x] Argue with your parents a lot.
[ ] Argue with your brother(s) a lot.
[x] Argue with your sister(s) a lot.
[ ] Have your own room.
[ ] Do your own laundry.
[x] Cook dinner once in a while.
[ ] Are loud and obnoxious at home.
[ ] Wear pajamas when you are not going
anywhere.
[x] You sleep in very long.
[ ] Your parents are separated.
[ ] One or both of your grandparents
live with you.

FRIEND CONFESSIONS
[x] You currently dislike one or more
of your friends.
[ ] You are jealous of one or more of
your friends.
[x] You have known a friend your whole
life.
[x] Your friends are all taller than
you.
[x] You have been ditched by a friend.
[ ] You have memorized a friend phone
number.
[x] You have lost/forgotten a friends
phone number.
[ ] You have been to all of your
friends houses.

HABIT CONFESSIONS
[ ] You bite your nails.
[ ] You have an odd obsession with
giraffes.
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door
closed.
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door
open.
[x] There is at least one sound you
cannot stand.

LOVE CONFESSIONS
[x] You currently like someone
[ ] You want to kill one of your exes.
[x]You can stay commited
for an
unusually long time.
[ ] You get bored of your crush/bf/gf
easily.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf/ex has called you a
bitch before.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf/ex has called you
self-
centered before.

PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
[ ] Gay marriage is fine by you.
[x] The beach is an excellent place
for a date.
[ ] Pink is an ugly color.
[x] Needles aren't so horrible

HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS
[x] Fallen down the stairs
[ ] Someone has tied your shoelaces
together.
[ ] Had a nail fall off.
[x] Had surgery.
[x] Slapped someone across the face.
[x] Killed someone.
[ ] You have been to Europe.
[ ] You have been to Canada.
[ ] You have worn something inside out
for a whole day.

taDa~ err.. i tink i killed someone though.. ABOUT to.. *evil laughter*

weeee....!

2007-03-08T17:48:00.000+08:00

hhaa... fwen made this vid.. im feeling so good to be in it =)

=)

2007-03-07T15:53:00.001+08:00

i kinda feel good 2day.. cause.. i din get caught for my nails and my hair... WOOHOO!! so lucky.. phew... i got ways my friend... ways....

being 'betrayed'

2007-03-06T21:05:00.001+08:00

well.. guess it aint gonna be that i suppose... thnx to my good fwen/brother/buddy... thnx alot for ur steal =) NOT!!! faggot.. bloody HOle... well sorry for my sudden change 2day.. sorry shuyi ><>< ...well looks like my days are dull once again.. thanx to shaun... u lucky u in gang.. oh well.. its called respecting other people but YOU..... fag.. sorry for the concerns =// looks like u wun be ur the one to be there huh... **sob**

2007-03-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

well... hmmm.. i guess last nite was erm.. din make out good at all huh meL...

quarreled with dad late at night... he din even dare to look into my eyes... mom says i got a demonized eye... so.. well then.. hmmm....

last night.. i watched ghost rider with meL =) she's kinda cute and all.. sheeesh!!!
well better start my week gloomy.. i bet i din make the best of our night huh meL... so sorry =(

2007-03-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

i'll slit my throat and spill my blood on this ground just to make it right for YOU....

lemme put u in my position.. if u got 2 choices..
option a: u worked so hard for "it", and is about to be urs... will u go for it?
option b: u worked okae.. 999999 times less harder then option a.. will u go for it?
tell me.. cause option a isn't about to be urs.. and im addicted to "it"...

i'll die a thousand deaths for u.. i'll face anyone just for u.. i'll slit my throat to make this ground urs.. i'll take a bullet for u... once i have u in my arms.. i'll never let u go.. never... but heck.. that would never happen cause u noe y..? im such a jerk-off.. a fucked up guy who doesn't give up no matter wad happpens.. even if i have to choose from life, or death.. i'll make a third option.. YOU....

2007-03-03T11:40:00.000+08:00

i feel im cheated.. yet i felt i did something terribly wrong again.. dam.. i have no idea wad the fuck have been going on around me.. wad if i end my life now..? will it settle every single fucked up thing..? or if i go on.. will i have a slightess bit of chance? or maybe i be a dumb-ass for life..? heck.. im still a virgin in steading -.- kinda stupid.. but i chose so for "her" but.. will it be worth while..? will i continue hurting myself?.. time will tell.. until the hangman's noose..

uh oh..

2007-03-01T20:28:00.000+08:00

i tink i've dun something wrong... wrong... wrong.. maybe i repeated the mistake..? i dunno.. i dunno wad the Fuck i've done wrong again..

im back baby~!

2007-02-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

ah..booya...! im back blogging.. chuga chuga chuga =D ups and downs makes the world go round.. =) POA is twisting my brain.. the onli subject im not good at all... well maybe chinese.. but heck.. who cares about it anyways..? im gonna book LILY for e moviee.. weeeee!!!! still got about.. 2 months for it =(

NCC is such a drraaaaaggg........ woooh... heng gonna take ova soon.. but i dowan go for the spec course camp.. i hate camps.. it gives me the hibbi jeebees...
no one to sms alrdy D= ... looks like my message bill is going low.. lower then floor.. bom.. bom..bom... xD

im not drunk.. i just see things differently from the "normal" people xD and heck im not deaf.. i like the blast my head with sweet sweet metal.. suddenly got a kink for audition.. better not.. or my fingers are gonna break one day x)
i wanna start working.. but parents said it put my boss at risk cause its kinda.. dangerous as i dun have a legal age to work as a lifeguard YET... but next year.. hehehhee... woohoo.. sweet paradise~!

my computer is breaking down =( keeps on hanging.. lagging..hanging.. more lagging.. crashing.. lagging.. and blackout =(

dunno y im so pissing angry this few days... i feel like sh!t after everytime i wake up.. its like.. oh fuck.. not another stupid day... well.. i have to do it.. no choice.. or i'll be like.. like... like.. some spoilt kid who i swore to wipe out from the face of this earth... spoilt brats... DIE!!!

and oh yea.. im back babiiieee!!!

2007-02-01T21:28:00.001+08:00

sh!t la.. i nearly cool down because of a fight... my bloody ncc senior said if i fight.. i'll not get my rank tomorrow.. thnx alot... now im totally pissed and wanna break that guy's face(diff guy)... wu ji lai la... stare until like that... sec 4 lose to sec 3... dui lian..

meLLie..

2007-01-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

Wahh... meLLie voice very cute O.O... sound so unreal LOL... like a chipmunk talking xD giggle 70% of the time... haha... xD
woohoo! gonna send lily to school 2morrow =D yay! hehe...

woo!

2007-01-12T17:45:00.000+08:00

hehe... im guessing im gonna have a brighter year ahead...or it'll be too bright... that my bulb burst... BOOM!!
com'on.. have u ever learnt ur lesson... asking gurls and all... and ps.. im **NOT** attached to lizanne.... she's way outa my league... or am i way out of her league...bahahaha!!!
dam sleepy dis few days... found someone sweet, gorgeous, beautiful and funny to talk to at nite hahaa....

Woohoo!!

2007-01-07T03:05:00.000+08:00

yea!! finally found the song that is ringing in my head "set me on fire~ i believe in u" wooohooo!! lol... tata young >< well heck..so late alrdy... lazy go to bed.. still got homework to do... sigh,,
NEWS FLASH!!! i've been reading books.. omg.. wad a huge change... tot it was impossible for me to read.. >< oh well... the book is call "The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader"
interesting book... oh well.. i predict i'll have a bad yr ahead.. heck with it i dun care..

biatch

2007-01-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

okae... now the number one bIIITCH! i noe is.. my faggot sister.. think u're so big huh? eat dirt stupid toot!~!! com'on give me ur best shot! i'll make sure i'll give it doubly hard on ur soul.. then u'll regret being my brother... mofo..

sigh... okae okae.. enuff about that dumb gurl.. now... school... school's a drag.. that bloody teacher was like... **blah blah blah... and u noe.. blah blah blah..this is wad u must blah blah blah** i wonder how teachers got enuff stamina to talk like that.. worse then metal music... puts me to sleep.. even worse.. when the principal was like...**blah blah blah....we are the best...**blah blah** this is a atomonous school **blah blah blah** den i was sleeping for 1hour plus... den she screamed and shook me back awake... den after that.. i went back to sleep...

well looks like im still gonna be a nite guy..
woohoo! climbed the back gate of my school... pals got cuts and i got paint all over... and mom got pissed... so fun!!!

AIYO!!

2007-01-02T19:03:00.000+08:00

zzz.... school gonna open soon... anyway.. happy new year all!!!

BBQ

2006-12-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

woota.. bbq... but headache got worsen.. wad can i say? i noe.. brace the pain.. it'll feel better..
My tuition teacher always made fun of me and my onli sweet and drinkable fwen.. COKE!! woota!..
Lets see... emo dis few days.. wanted to die.. ah heck.. wad is life so good anyway.. lol sounds so corny.. well my fwens in the net games are like fcked up suck-ups... so this is wad i say.. fwens are a gamble u have a choice to take.. so i'll be anti-social.. it'll be better xD

2006-12-30T11:46:00.000+08:00

i've got a quiz!

[x] Gotten a referral.
[x] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten your cellphone taken away.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[x] Chewed gum during class.

TOTAL: 4

[x] Gotten late to a class more than 10
times.
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[x] Returned at least 5 projects in
late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like
it.
[x] Skipped class at least 3 times.

TOTAL: 5

[x] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you
out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

TOTAL: 5

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] Went on myspace; xanga; etc on the
computer in the library
[x] Took pictures during class.
[x] Called someone during class.
[x] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3
during class.

TOTAL: 4

[x] threw something at the teacher
[x] Went outside the classroom without
permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

TOTAL: 5

[x] Gotten a call home
[x] Couldn't go on a field trip cause
you behaved bad
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school
[x] gotten a referral and ripped it up
[x] used passes from other days/ Or
made fake pass
[x] said a cuss word during class loud
enough so the teacher could hear

TOTAL: 6

ALL TOGETHER: 29x4=...? ...116 o.o

add up your score and times it by 4.
repost as 116% Hated by Teachers
coooool... i like...

okae..

2006-12-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

sigh.. so emo the past few days.. okae fck dat shit... my sister.. annoying little brat.. keeps on irritating me.. oh well.. she's a fag.. hmmm i tink im gonna cut myself just below my eyes.. guess it'll look good...lol so gorie..my sister is like finding excuses.. lying her way out of her retaining trouble.. what a biatch.. okae enuff of talking about my sis..

had headache for the past few days... guess it is part of the emo thingie..hmm lily's back to singapore.. yay! =X oh well..uniform no stock.. dammit.. mom was pissed cause i nvr buy my uni earlier lol.. ima get it on monday then..

yea! gonna be a life-guard by the end of nxt week.. teehee.. sitting on the high throne at the swimming pool xD well dat's it for 2nite..

Blood punk,
MeL

Sigh..

2006-12-28T19:52:00.000+08:00

okae... during the trip.. i was like stunned.. realized that my life is ruin even before for it even started... **slaps myself**

2006-12-25T01:15:00.001+08:00

sigh.. got my ipod back.. still feel so empty at this time.. christmas is dull dis yr...

SIgh..

2006-12-23T16:17:00.000+08:00

okae.. im bored.. but hey.. good news.. i get my ipod =D
Gonna blast my ears.. wooohooo!!! saw a gurl in Flyff.. she was like.. seducing me.. lol
anyway now i noe.. im gonna be really famous.. stupid tuition teacher told me i was his most special student in trash talking.. crap..

well.. got headache last nite.. its like.. my inner skull is about to split into half..
got slight headache in the morning..

well back to doing wad i was doing just now..

Hates >=D

2006-12-22T01:27:00.000+08:00

Okae... i cant't sleep..
okae now i shall post my hates:

1. i hate being copied.. so i change styles once in awhile
2. i hate backstabbers... so i'll get back on those who stabbed me and chase them in a zombified manner
3. i hate asses who tink they are cool and calling other people posers..
4. i hate guys playing girls out.. after that dumping them and making them cry **hate the sight of it**
5. i hate guys acting like girl in games... bloody pigs.. begging for their account and stuff..
6. i hate people who judge me
7. i hate people who insults my style
8. i hate people who thinks they are always rite..
9. i hate people who interrupts me when im doing stuff..
10. i hate people who are arrogant

2006-12-21T16:25:00.000+08:00

yay! got me blog.. thnx to joey.. bamboo stick =) hehe... zz y can't i go to the freakin chalet? dam.. i noe y.. i got drunk.. mom said that was the final line..
phew.. school's gonna open soon.. and im not ready for it.. =P fwens are important.. and i noe y.. but i refuse to get more fwens.. plain lazines.. =) first post of da day lol =)